Decided to update blog, no pictures to post, ): .
Life is so mean, and so.... maybe hard. Expectations are hard to meet.
Stress so hard for something, but still never got hands on it.
Tried so hard to make changes, but everyone still didn't notice,
still hating for life. Wanted to make things go smoothly,
ended up, it all goes wrong for me. Maybe things are going so fine for me,
like what you think, but it isn't. I want to die, but i'm scare i'd make others cry for me,
and the pain of it. The feeling of loss. I want to make up to the things i've done.
But did you guys ever gave me a chance?
I never once understood how guys mind function, because they are
such weird creatures on earth. And they hurt girls the most.
But i never once doubt their feelings, blame it on my stupidity
getting myself hurt. Once bitten, twice shy. I've learn to.
But still i'm figuring out their mind set. I hate them.
Because never once was they true. Tears aren't meant to be
cried like that. So i should stop, but god created us to have feelings.
I can't control. But i still foolishly, love him.
Whats the point, Tired, went swimming yesterday.
Slept till 1am, woke up use comp. Hope tomorrow will be a better day,
See you soon my loves.
-SHAGMUCH-

Jio me out yeahs ? :P

Update my own pictures, life is so bored once again, anyone bored too?
Jio me out! ): I'm tired right now, yawns. See you all soon!

Primary school pictures (:

Hey guys! :D i'm back to update.
Did you guys miss me, i know you all sure did (BHB) :x
Anyway, i gonna post my back then pictures in primary and my
schoolmates! :D
I'm sure you all wouldn't know i got those picture in hands. Hahaha. Be sure to leave some tags. Here it goes !

Haziq and Izzat.


Lelia and Natasha.


Lelia, Me and Natasha.


Lelia and Me.


Amira.


Huda.


MingFu and Bernard.


XuanWee.


Hazrul and MingFu.


ZhiXun.


KahWai, Leonard and Xinyi.


Me and Lelia.

Thats all for now, blogger is giving me problems updating pictures! ):
Tiring job.

Heartaches

Really really hurting.. do you all know how i feel, really it pierced through my heart,
All i can do is cry alone, do you all know it? Where were you guys when i needed you?
I always tried my best to do what i can do..  Now, i don't even feel like celebrating
my birthday, it doesn't even matter to her. I rather sit in a quiet place, and rest..
Without anyone to interrupt me.. I know, i have a bad temper, i know i suck.
I know, but do you know why? Know why i can't change? Because the
enviroment i'm in, doesn't allow me to change, i'm sorry guys, breakdown once
again. This week, i already breakdown for alot of times, sorry not to tell you guys.
What the things i want is love, you know ? And those guys who played me out there,
You'd all have retribution, i know.. You all better remember..
I really really need you guys ): Who'd lent me a shoulder to lean on..?
Forget it.. Sign off right here..

Birthday means nothing to me anymore..

To my mum :
Fmylife bitch, everything went wrong for me, everything.
Why must you depress me at this time, are you happy to see me cry
on my birthday? I really cannot control my feelings anymore.
This is the first time, my heart broke into really powder.
You say the things, that pierce deep deep through my heart,
made me more scare to everything, more protective, more untrusting,
you say the things made me reflect on my everything, my past,
my character, my mindset, my present state. You change it again.
I'm maturing step by step, taking in expriences, changing but in the wrong way.
Must you? Must you do this? WHY MUST YOU ? AT THIS TIME ?
AT THIS MOMENT ? FUCK. Always say must be happy on my birthday,
but you filled my heart with sadness. Everything is my wrong,
my wrong, ya my wrong. You all right, i got nothing to say.
I don't wanna see her, i really don't wanna see her. I'm afraid i'd
cry out and scold her shout at her. Alot of things really really came to my mind.

Thanks all lovely people for their wishes, i love you all to the max.
Yes it's my birthday the first one who ruin it, is one of the closest person
to me, she gave me tears rather than laughter, she made me sad rather
than happy, she ruin my everything this year. Currently not having the mood.
But still i appreciate all those who wished me. Sorry if i forgot to reply
to your messages. But is really appreciated. Esp one person, (:
WanTing, thanks to you for delivering ice-cream to my house,
And wishing me first on 12:00am. Love you damn muchmuchmuch !
Not much knew my birthday, but i'm happy that there's still people
that wish me. ♥
Thanks to all, those with a heart is my gans, and closest friends.
Those that doesn't have a heart, i still love you guys, don't take it to heart.

Listed according to order of timing.
Advanced birthday, Felicia boyfriend ♥,
tell me your names to be stated (:
11:58am - Kahwai
On the day (:
12:oo - WanTing ♥, Damien Whitey ♥
12:01 -Michelle Xingan ♥
JiaMin ♥, Daniel, ShiYing , ChunMing Butthole, Angie ♥,
XueLi Humbao ♥, YuePin 1e2'o9 ♥, Priscillia Kahchng ♥, Jeremy,
Anqi Bitch ♥, Joan ♥, Hock, Bjorn, Lelia ♥, Brasel, Eshi, TianXin.
Jeffery Papa ♥, Rachel
Belated birthday - Abbie.
Missed out some, but it's alright (:

Back in action!

Have not updated for a long time.
I gonna post those over due pictures.
Getting abit emotional today, and abit siao. Yeah, i pok already, left with $2,
Thats for like enough for a plate of $1.80 chicken rice. LOL!
Ow, someone donate me money ^OO^
Chatting on msn now, its midnight. I don't wanna sleep.
Boring around here, i gonna stay home till 22th if i'm not wrong.
I hope so. Quite a number of people around me changed. But i can't do
anything for now ): . Its kind of sad.
I bet ahma's gonna be so dissapointed if she found out that i'm taking
lots of Lolipop from her. Can god faster take aways my troubles?!
Change those troubles into laughter, i seem so happy everyday.
My holidays homework is not done yet, always lack of the mood to do.
Maybe i'm lazy.................................................................................
I've change my blogskin since the previous one was abit buggy.
But still haven't think of what to put in the main and extras, but i know,
i gonna need it. :P Pssh. Anyone can take me out to play!, i'm bored fuck
at home. Jio me go out hor!! Those bombermans.
And i want my presents on 25th November! But i'm leaving 25th nov out
for celebrating my birthday with my family, Loves. I look forward to it!
And planning other outings for 24th, 26th. Craving for mango ice cream from
AMKHUB (L).

10/11/09, went to ktv.

Lost count of date :P, went to hilltop play.

Done, cya loves <3>