Sorry readers, haven't been updating my blog.

I'm feeling rather down recently.

This post is dedicated to him, you know who you are. I've loved you from the start, i said i'd try my best to wait, and i prove myself wrong that i could wait, because i love you. I waited for you till you come out, i attend your court but didn't get to see you, but it's the effort that counts. Your court was postponed, and you got bailed out. I understand after 3weeks + not getting to contact, see each other might lead to feeling fade, but what did you told me? You lied. You said you'd rebuild that lost love. I trusted you. On your birthday, i attitude you, because of the paper you snatched. But it was in a fit of anger, but after that, i thought, i did let you down, so i went over to make you happy. But.. dissapointed. At first, i did think maybe you're still angry. I gave you 1 day to cool down, you didn't even reply my text. And i text you a whole load of things, you can just reply me 1 sentence. I've struggled so hard to wait for you to come out remand, not for all this, from the start i've expected a long lasting r/s. Because i thought, you'd be mature enough to think. I knew i did a rash decision, i regretted it enough till i cried 1 whole day. I wanted you to come back to me, i didn't want to give this r/s up, i tried over and over again, but got hurt deeper and deeper. I keep telling myself this is the last time, but i just couldn't bear to let go. Do you know how much i love you? Do you understand my fears? I'm scared that i'll lose you, but infact i've already lost you. I want you to come back, you're not a burden to me, don't be stupid, i love you for who you are, i don't think you're a big burden to me, i wouldn't mind it really.. would you think it over ?